I feel better now that your heart is on my bulletin board
"us," "you zeus, you" and "it's about dating" are all just an eye-flick away

my companions in your absence
my reminders of my higher purpose
my promise to you

Yes!
I will shine brite colors
at my demons
to scare them away
Yes!

you look better at starbux than kramer's
i can't explain it
it just is
to be fair
i likely set the tone
with my dour world-weary expression

Not two but ten now
have told me
to quit you
but it's like asking
heaven to cleave
from earth
I earth, moribund at present
you heaven, on borrowed wings
the roles may alternate
but one must always follow
like night to the day

and when I lay in your lap
I felt your mouth on my neck
I felt like a newborn
in her mother's embrace
and I remembered what
Dr. Smith always said:

We just need to be held.

Your attention was only distracting because
I smelled stale tobacco on my mouth and hair
that's why I wouldn't look at you and instead
buried my head in your jeans

I prayed tonight that God would make you invisible to me.

Like you never were or will be.